Why am I like that?!?

Lately I've realized that I do not take time out of my busy schedule to enjoy life. I tend to get so wrapped up in things that I get annoyed with the people who are appreciating life. Example: ever since high school I have not walked slow. I was trained in high school to walk fast because I only had four minutes to get to my locker on the third floor from the 5th floor and then proceed to my class on the 4th floor. I would get annoyed with students at Pius that walked too slow for me. I was not at all hostile towards them, but I would try to get around them so that I could continue on with my fast paced life. The thing that makes me laugh is that I was never late for class....even when I had to stop at my locker. I didn't even take the time to say hi to my friends because I had to get to my locker....I'm saddened by that. I could have made so many more friendships if I had slowed down and taken the time to appreciate that fact that I was in high school.

In college, I still find myself doing this. The funny thing is that, I now have at least 10 minutes between classes and a lot of the time have no reason to be rushed. Today after my last class, I found myself becoming annoyed with the kid in front of me that was walking slowly, and then I thought about it.....why am I in such a hurry? I have nowhere to be and gaining another 2 minutes of study time is not going to help me much in the long run. So I made a pact with myself to slow down and start enjoying life. I mean you only get to live it once......why not appreciate it? I don't want to be the person that says someday I'm going to do that, I'm going to be the person that says....I did that and now I'm doing this. Life goes by so fast and we as Americans forget to take time out and enjoy what we are doing.



This is something else that I find really important.....reflection. Living at home for 3 years by myself while my sisters were at college gave me a chance to be alone and really get to know myself. I didn't live in the shadow of my sisters, but when they left I was really able to get a chance to reflect on myself and who I was as a person. I still enjoy my alone time. It was hard for me to have a roommate in college because I missed my alone time. I am by no means a loner, but there are times when I just want to reflect on my life. It's okay to be alone and take the time to reflect on yourself....you really learn a lot about yourself. So the next time you find yourself hurrying off some place that you don't really need to be hurrying off to, take a step back and appreciate your life. This is something that I will continue to work on and eventually I will be able to fully appreciate my life.

The book this time is:
Walk Two Moons (Sharon Creech)